Feel to make you Real

I've been busy just living life, Enjoying watching my children laugh and grow.
I've been doing some writing, Dealing with stress and other issues that way.
Here is some recent stuff I have written.

Little girl, Don't give it all away,
you will end up regretting it one day.
I know time doesn't seem to fast,
One day you will wish this time would of last
because before you know it today will be the past.
You may be in a place
were you might not recognize your face
Were you are not sure who you are
or who you will become
You might be lost
but don't let your loneliness find you,
and bring you down
You are loved, you are cared for, you are special, and You are beautiful.
Do not let anyone tell you different.



Love in your Loneliness
Don't get lost in the sadness, anger, or fear.

Hold close everyone you hold dear.
its been years since the sadness set in.
since I felt the pain of heart break.
My pen is not my only friend.
actually our relationship has come to an end. (sort of)

I really wish that was better
But the keys under my finders are clicking
and I'm so tired of sitting
Tired of waiting and feeling so lost.
trying to find the right path to go down.
Its kinda Hard to say that I don't were I am going
I just know were I have been

I guess what I'm trying to say with these writings is, that I think too many Girls and boys are growing up way to fast, and will end up regretting their past. But every lesson is learned by each person in their own way. I know no buddy is perfect and I know I am Not.  but that's kind of getting off the subject. The other one is about feeling the realness of life and not hide behind other things. Trying to realize i have a little control over my life but its not in my hands. I have to trust that god will lead me down the right paths and things will be okay and work out. I think I finally have figured out what I will write about.  I want to be a publish writer one day. And I would love to publish a book of my poems, So I think I might start trying out my book  Idea here, Although I am slightly worried it will be copied and I wont get any credit for it, But I figure, its the Internet, Every things dated, PLUS I have all my writings in a note book so it be pretty hard to fake all that if things go bad for me in this publishing business. anyway enjoy!!

Once Upon A Time....

So I must admit I've been avoiding my blog.  I'm not really sure why. I'd like to say its because I'm so busy I have NO time for it, but thats not entirely true. I would have time if I would make it. I just need to figure out what is worth sharing and what isn't. but this isn't why I came to post today.
Today it is 3 years since I married Kevin. :)
And my thought is This is the perfect time to tell you our story.
Once upon a time in a land far far away.....(Just kidding)
Our story isn't like most.
But here it goes.
When I wasn't looking for love it came and found me. I say that because when I met kevin I was truly and honestly just done. Done with jerks, Done with lies, Done with waiting. I'm not going to lie, I was looking for something I just could never find exactly what I wanted. And I was even kinda sorta seeing someone else, but it wasn't really "official".. but that's another story.. Kevin's and My relationship began because  He sent me a simple "Hey how it going?" message on some social net work site I never used, but for some reason I replied. He says he messaged me because he was bored and I was cute. I guess you can say I replied for the same reasons. Kevin told me that he was in the army on active duty and would be sent over seas sometime soon. So I figured why not have another person to talk to. He was a sweet guy. Easy to talk to and as I always like to say Everything I never knew I wanted.... We just kinda happened. One day it was messages on the computer, the next it was long phone calls and text that lasted hours. I knew I loved him before our first meeting. I really loved who he was and who he is now. Kevin got hurt while he was in training and eventually was sent home to stay... Everything between me and him happened so fast. We started to talk in June started dating in July, He purposed in September, We moved in together in November or October. Then we were married in March. I barley knew him a year before we got married, but I knew he was the one for me. Thinking back on it now, it seemed so much longer then it really was.
I know this all sounds crazy. But there is even more. In January I found out I was pregnant. It was not the proudest moment in my life, but it was a challenge I was willing to embraces. Don't get me wrong here, I wanted to have kids, just happened sooner then planed... anyway back to the story.We originally were going to have our wedding in August 08-08-08 to be exact, after going to the doctor and finding out that was due in August(i actually had kaleigh (08-07-08). We moved the date and some how planed a wedding in a few months. It wasn't the wedding of my dreams and I do wish some things would of been done differently. But to be completely honest The most important thing I had on my mind was marrying Kevin. Everything else just didn't matter that much. and that was just the beginning
Now some pictures of that lovely day.

My Favorite things about Kevin are....

He is Kind, Thoughtful, Loving, a good listener,  strong, we can talk about anything, and he is understanding...

He some how was able to get me out of my comfort zone and do things I never thought I would be doing.
He Makes me. he is my other half that completes me!