the busy work of life

As most of you know i'm going to be getting pretty busy. Just got full time at my job!! YAY! i'm so excited. A little worried i'll be missing my babies. but I know its for the best and it wont be forever! We have been really tight on money lately because we have to pay back a lot of money that we got from the army, (we knew about the first payment this year and saved like crazy to pay it) and then they turn around and ask us to do it again not even 6 months later, with 3 or 4 month notice.. let me tell ya its not easy coming up with money out of thin air. I'm really hoping I can get as many hours as possible to make sure we don't get behind.
Our little family is doing well. Kaleigh Just turned 3 on Sunday!!



My Little girl  is Growing up.



Make sure you click so you can see the whole picture!!! Kaleigh is Getting So big  I love her, But she can be very stubborn and is a lot more like me then i'd like to admit. Sometimes when she talks I hear myself in what she says. My parents say She nothing like personality wise me, But just like me Energy/temper wise. Of course she is such a girl and Although I am a girl, I've never like the Girly things, so we are not so sure where she got this all from. she has fits when she doesn't get her way, but we are working on getting her to talk about her feelings/wants instead of screaming about them... She lives in a land of Faires and mermaids, where deigo (doras cousin) Rescue animals and she helps him save them. she often "talks" on the phone with him and then when she's "done" kaleigh tells me about all the adventures they have shared. It is quite interesting.. The other night she didnt want to sit down and eat because she was talking to Diego. I have a feeling it wont be the last time she wont want to come to the table because she is talking to a boy.Even if this time his imaginary, that probably only last a few years... she seems to have a very tender soul, Easily hurt and worried about spiders and bugs hurting her. she is such a sweet girl. I love Her so much for the person she is growing into.

Collin just started to cut teeth, None have push all the way threw but they are Just sitting there waiting to pop up. I feel the bumps and i feel so bad for the little guy. But what can you do its a part of life that None of us really remember so i guess thats the best part of it. He Lives on his belly Army crawling around to whatever he sees that sparks his interest. Or he just Follows kaleigh, me, or panda, Our cat around. Every time he sees Panda he Shoots off towards her  to try to get ahold of her before she runs away!! Every so often she holds still for him and  he gets to pet her. I'm almost sure he's going to create trouble for us. Always into something no matter how long you have your back turned. He is such a happy baby giggles real easy and seems to be a very busy body.  also Just the past few week or so started to pull up on things.  climbing my leg, Kaleighs couch, our lower chairs. Its so crazy!! Just today he pulled himself off the floor to his get his toys on his exersaucer.. he got himself to his knees so he could pay with what he wanted!! kinda scared me but he handle him self very well.. Also he is Pig (and i mean that in a nice way), eats a baby jar of fruit or veggies, then something else we are having thats soft.. when it comes to food he will eat anything, yes I know he is just a baby(and of course we dont give him anything his belly cant handle), but he doesn't care what you are eating he thinks he should get some and will Lunge after your plates or hands if he is near by while you are eating. Regardless of how sad or upset I get he always makes me smile.I love my Little boy

And as for my husband, He has been working hard. Switching jobs then going back to his old one. I would ask you pray that his back gets better, it seems to take a bigger toll on him every day. I think I will make a longer post about the more detail stuff with this another time. I have a lot of Feelings about this that would be a great share another day, this post is pretty long already. I hope you like my LONG and big update. TWO in one week!!    :)

a day in the life of ME.

So I've been pretty busy today. The Kids have been with grandma pracht for the day and will be tomorrow as well..
I guess I have some time to myself and I thought why not give you a day in the life of me with out my kids! lol..
Today I woke up later than usual (8:30) which anyone with kids knows thats sleeping in!!! i'm usually up by 7ish...
But anyway. after I got up, I made coffee, and started to clean up the house. Once it was all clean, I steam vac the living room !! it really need it.. Some where in there I had breakfast. and woke up my husband. (who went out and mowed the lawn). Then we wash the car and the Taho. Then we had salad for lunch. Shortly after we went to the store because Kaleighs birthdays on Sunday and we need to get her a present since we hadn't really gotten her anything yet. we need a few things from the store too. Kevin went to work after that . SO once I got home I wrap the presents and then just sat on the couch for a little while. Then I attempted to make banana muffins with crumble top. and that kinda back fired because i used a little too much butter and it melted all over the top of the muffin stead of crumbling. although they still taste WONDERFUL!!! and now I'm sitting at the computer playing YAHTZEE at pogo.com. very good thing to do when your bored and have nothing else to do! also watch a littles news and tv  here and there. Its been great to have a break from my kids but I miss them Dearly!! I always keep myself busy when they are not  around to do it.
Speaking of children, Kaleighs turning 3 Next sunday!!  my baby girls all grown up! and her little brothers not too far behind her! he the size she was at 1! its crazy how it seems like you turn around they are talking and walking and getting in to everything. Kaleigh has some of the best stories and  imagination. She recently told me she doesn't want to be human because she wants to live with Ariel (who is the little mermaid for those of you who don't know) and  be a mermaid. I told her she couldn't because i'd miss her too much and she told me I could go with her. she makes me smile ... Sometimes I wish we could have the innocents of a child again. believe anything can happen, But always thinking it will be the good. My days are nothing like this when my kids are around. I find out what going to happen with my job by the end of august so i'm hoping to get full time!!! and from what my supervisors say thats a very good possibility. any way this is just my little random update, maybe i'll do another tomorrow!
My favorite moment from yesterday!! My Children playing together.

just so....

I'm just
so stressed.
so tired.
I come to this page at the end of every day, with so much to say
So much anger and frustration.
SO much wanting to spill my problems out on this page,
like some how that would make them all go away.
Out the door, My bare feet hit the pavement.
Walking seems to be a good way to work out whatever I'm dealing with.
its a good time to think.
good time for peace and quiet

It's just one of those days
when everything is completely wrong
and yet you don’t even know why
and its one of those days when you
just wish that everyone would leave
you alone and go away,
yeah its one of those days
when all you need is to be left alone
yet at the same time you wish
someone out there would care.

Its been a hard time lately there is a lot I really don't feel like sharing and a lot that I just don't know how to say without coming out the wrong way...

I Love my life, Things are not always  easy or perfect. I'm just going to leave it at that. I'll let you know if things change.


Collin and kaleigh are great. I love them no matter what kind of struggles i seem to have. They always make life seem easy and make me miss the carefree time of childhood.
Collins rolling all over the place and he just turned 6 months old!!  HE so different than kaleigh. kaleigh is defiantly at the age were she is testing her limits and seeing what she can and can not get away. But she is so smart and intrested in everything... I love them.

Potty TIME!!

Kaleigh is Finally potty trained!!!! I've spent the last few months stressing over the fact she is not potty trained, she would come up to me tell me she is wet or dirty! Everyone kept telling me she'll get it, when she does she'll start telling you she needs to go, and just last week she was doing alright but NOW she is going on the big girl potty always. We still do pull ups at night time but thats just in case, most of the time she wakes up dry.. Just one more baby to go! and well he wont be ready for a few years probably. Who knows, I"m just so excited that kaleighs going on the potty, ITs party time for the potty trainee!
Collins also rolls over to get toys and little things around him he starting to take kaleighs toys and she not so excited about sharing with him but i'm sure she will once she realize he will have to share with her too!
Anyway kevin got a new job at a local gas station, working the 3- 11 shift 3 or 4 nights a week. so he will be working less but still have the same amount of hours he had working 6 days a week like 4 hour shifts,
I have been working and switched my Schedule just an hour different but it will be fore the better! We will have so much family time now it will be so nice. I love spending time with the kids and kevin.
Yesterday we went to a carnival that was very small in the mall parking lot it was a lot of fun! kaleigh was so brave and wanted to go on all the rides, she kinda had me worried at a few the pictures will be from that!
 Well i just thought i'd give a little update on whats going on right now i'm pretty busy lately so I dont have much time to write anything else!!!!!  ENJOY THE PICTURES!!


Kaleigh riding in the train.




elephant ride!



she went high in the sky!!

kaleigh horse, she won with choosing a duck

kaleigh and her horse

collin sleeping!

Kaleigh driving!! watch out world!

I almost didnt let kaleigh ride this BUT SHE insisted and was tall enough so i let her...



she loved it!!



In a Music Moment

In a music moment.
Sitting, and listing
Finding a whole new meaning to each song.
Songs I Love.
Feeling the intense moment of when you dont want the song to be over,
Wishing to linger in the lyrics for just a bit longer.
but then it ends before you can hit repete.
a song with a new bet comes on
And you're all wraped up again.
Thoughts and feelings have always been attached to certain songs for me.
Some Certain songs make me think of certain people.

I have been listineing to music to help me sleep lately. I love a good song. This came to me the other night when I was listening to a song i loved years ago, and found a whole new meaning. I Love songs with clever lyrics and a good beat, some songs I like because what they say, I dont even like how it sounds. Thats a very rare occation though...
Also I've always loved sheets of music. I love the way notes look...

Just today I got a call from work saying they are going to move me to a CRA1 (which is one step closer to customer service)!! I'm very excited. I start my training for it this week, I'm really hoping it means more hours  and I'll be able to do more with customers. (and probably get paid more!) Yesterday was mothers day  I had a wonderful time with Kevin, Kaleigh, and Collin. It was so nice to spend time just us and really get to enjoy eachother. We had a great time at the lake (fishing) and just doing Family stuff all day. Playing games and We went on a Crazy long walk to subway (which is a mile away or so)...  Kevin Cooked me supper which was amazing. It was just some good time together, with out feeling like we had to be some where. This week is going to be crazy i'll update you on things when i know....
here some pictures of my weekend.


Kaleigh Blowing bubbles




Kaleigh and I




My Very Happy Boy



Collin Playing. almost always a Smile on his face
unless he is Hungery.

Sink Or Swim

I've been looking through one of my poem note book, which has pockets in it full of random paper I've written on. I've come across many things I've thought about, but forgot about once on the paper.
One Piece of paper in Particular caught my eye.

 It was from the summer after I graduated (2007)
The Summer that everything changed.
It was the summer I started down the path that got me here.
The Summer I met Kevin.
This is one of the first things I wrote after Kevin and I started to date.
I remember when I wrote this.
I was at camp.
By the water when I saw a Sign.
That Said *DANGER* no swimming.
and here is what I wrote.



Title: Sink Or Swim.
-But What if I want to Jump in?
-What if things don't go as I plain?
-What if I drown?
-What if I jump in and there is no one to save me from the murky waters?
-What if I find something new in the waters I didn't know was there before.
-What if the waters shallow enough to stand, then turns into sinking sand.
-What if the bottoms rocky and I end up getting hurt.
-What if I'm not ready to get my feet wet.
-What if it looks warm but ends up being cold.
-What if the person I want to save me just walks by.
-What if I don't want to be saved.
-What if I'm not dressed for the journey?
The water looks soo good, But I dont know if I want it that bad.
I'm so tired of these "what ifs"
I might as well Just jump in and see if I Sink or Swim.



I love this No Swimming picture.



Everything I've been writing lately is venting, or something I'm not quite ready to share.

I'm just really stressed, and very busy.
hopefully i'll get a little more time and beable to let you all know whats going on.

Children Update.

Kaleigh.

She is getting so big. She is SOOO SMART.
almost everyday she ask to go to school.
Yesterday she said "I go to school today?! I said no, not till your birthday.. She said I go to school, so i go to work so i make moneys!" made me laugh... because she had such a serious face on.
she starting to remember when i say she can have things. Example : I tell her you can have your candy tomorrow after lunch. and after lunch she will ask for it.
She is full of non stop Energy, Laughs, and smiles
Kaleigh will hold full conversations and then sometimes tell you the same thing 20 times. She does get  little whinny sometimes but they say shes at that age.
she still loves dress and wants to do everything that mommy or daddy does.
Hopefully here soon she will be diaper free. but thats a process that could take some more time.

Collin.

collin is a Bundle of laughs. He is SOO ticklish. when i put his clothes on in the morning he giggles as i pull the sleeves over his arms EVERY TIME. like it doesnt happen everyday or something.  he is such a happy baby. I am so blessed with him. He is pretty easy going and lets you know when he's not liking something. He got some coos going on. He discovered he has hands and they are his favorite thing to chew, right next to any toy you give him that he can fit in to his mouth. He also has started to play with toys a little although a lot of the time he ends up dropping them. He sleeps threw the night almost every night. sometimes he will sleep later than kaleigh. He kinda scoots around he kicks so much that he ends up going around in circles on his back or belly....

 enjoy.

Once Upon A Time....

So I must admit I've been avoiding my blog.  I'm not really sure why. I'd like to say its because I'm so busy I have NO time for it, but thats not entirely true. I would have time if I would make it. I just need to figure out what is worth sharing and what isn't. but this isn't why I came to post today.
Today it is 3 years since I married Kevin. :)
And my thought is This is the perfect time to tell you our story.
Once upon a time in a land far far away.....(Just kidding)
Our story isn't like most.
But here it goes.
When I wasn't looking for love it came and found me. I say that because when I met kevin I was truly and honestly just done. Done with jerks, Done with lies, Done with waiting. I'm not going to lie, I was looking for something I just could never find exactly what I wanted. And I was even kinda sorta seeing someone else, but it wasn't really "official".. but that's another story.. Kevin's and My relationship began because  He sent me a simple "Hey how it going?" message on some social net work site I never used, but for some reason I replied. He says he messaged me because he was bored and I was cute. I guess you can say I replied for the same reasons. Kevin told me that he was in the army on active duty and would be sent over seas sometime soon. So I figured why not have another person to talk to. He was a sweet guy. Easy to talk to and as I always like to say Everything I never knew I wanted.... We just kinda happened. One day it was messages on the computer, the next it was long phone calls and text that lasted hours. I knew I loved him before our first meeting. I really loved who he was and who he is now. Kevin got hurt while he was in training and eventually was sent home to stay... Everything between me and him happened so fast. We started to talk in June started dating in July, He purposed in September, We moved in together in November or October. Then we were married in March. I barley knew him a year before we got married, but I knew he was the one for me. Thinking back on it now, it seemed so much longer then it really was.
I know this all sounds crazy. But there is even more. In January I found out I was pregnant. It was not the proudest moment in my life, but it was a challenge I was willing to embraces. Don't get me wrong here, I wanted to have kids, just happened sooner then planed... anyway back to the story.We originally were going to have our wedding in August 08-08-08 to be exact, after going to the doctor and finding out that was due in August(i actually had kaleigh (08-07-08). We moved the date and some how planed a wedding in a few months. It wasn't the wedding of my dreams and I do wish some things would of been done differently. But to be completely honest The most important thing I had on my mind was marrying Kevin. Everything else just didn't matter that much. and that was just the beginning
Now some pictures of that lovely day.

My Favorite things about Kevin are....

He is Kind, Thoughtful, Loving, a good listener,  strong, we can talk about anything, and he is understanding...

He some how was able to get me out of my comfort zone and do things I never thought I would be doing.
He Makes me. he is my other half that completes me!

Time for me.

Lately I've been trying to set more time aside for myself.

Its been going well. Usually my "me time" is at work.

Its works out great, when we are not busy.

But when we are, I just find myself getting more frustrated.

Just so you know I work in a cabelas call center,

So when I'm not taking calls I'm aloud to read, write, and draw to keep myself busy.

My Favorite thing is writing. I LOVE to write.

I've been writing several pages a day. and thats why I havent really updated my blog.

by the time I get home, I have nothing left to say.

I'm sure your not thinking the same thing I am.

a little sharing is in order.

I guess I get nerves when I know someones going to read my deepest thoughts,
but I'm so tired of writing for anyone else but me. So here are some thoughts/poems.

sometimes a little fence keeping you from a big beautiful green field.

I just want all these words to spill out on to this page,
but none of them will come out
And none of them will go away.

its amazing how easily something breaks even though you've had it for a long time.

Sometimes moving forward can be has hard as looking back.

And here are some pictures of my children.

This is kaleigh. she is all dress up for our family pictures we took on friday. She is wearing her "sparkly Crown" as she likes to call it. and is very happy. She is growing up so fast. I can almost say she is not a toddler anymore. its crazy how fast she is growing and changing.  She has full out conversations with me now. I can not believe how much she knows. she is always surprising me with how smart she is.. My babys not such a baby anymore....

Collin has been getting bigger, growing a lot! he is so cute and happy! I just LOVE HIM! Daddy was trying to get him to smile real big for the camera and he did of course! He has started to laugh, I should say its more of a giggle. its still the cutest thing EVER!

Some food for thought...

I've been changing my page so much, i keep thinking its so me!
then i see someones else blog and i'm like Oh i really like that.
then think how can i get mine to look like that?!?!
I wish i was as good at editing HTML as i use to be.
these HTML are slightly more complicated than what i've worked with.
I'd spend hours on the computer Customizing my old Blogs/Myspace pages.....
But its like riding a bike i just got to get back into it.....
i've been reading up on some of the different things you can do on your own.
and going to different template pages and playing with the codes
so hopefully i'll just LOVE what  i come up with in the next few days.

anyway enough about the pages of this blog

I was asked to put up my recipe for chicken Alfredo!

Here it is.... its pretty simple

You cook a boneless chicken breast in a lightly butter pan

(i usually also lightly sprinkle pepper and garlic powder in the pan for extra flavor,

but you can use whatever seasoning you want and

i also cut up the chicken breast to bite size so it cooks evenly and fast.)

Bring any type of noodle to a Boil that you want (and of course drain once cooked)

I usually just buy the Alfredo sauce, my favorite is the Bertolli Alfredo sauce,

there are a few different choices for the bertolli alfredo sauce, they all taste really good.

Mix it all together in one pan. i usually add Cheddar cheese and Parmesan cheese and mix it till it melts.

You may also want to cook and put some veges (broccoli, spinach, ect.) Eat and enjoy!

I love BABY FEET! they are so cute and little and collin some of the cutest feet around!

i'm going to put some good quotes on this post because i have nothing better to write in the empty space, most  are by me others i'm not sure were they are from.

I want to write how I feel in the sky,
so then everyone will see, and everyone will know
then maybe everyone will remember. -Me


Music as always been one of loves of my life
it never lets me down
it always there when i need it
it always has the words i need to hear....
I always know what its going to say....
I got ever word memorized in my head.
thats why i always need to hear new music
the old ones become broken records that i dont want to listen to anymore.
But after I dont listen to a song for so long I hear it again then,
Its like a whole new life is brought to the table.-Me

A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for - Anonymous

this thought i've been chasing is dead and buried;
it shouldn't even get flowers on special holidays.
 -me

Life is like a coloring book
destiny has already drawn the picture
but it is you who decides how to fill in the lines

My darling look how much you have grown
so much time has past
I can't believe this year didnt last
if only it would
I love to see how much you have changed and grown.
You are everything i could have wanted in a child and more.
-Me (its about kaleigh. i wrote it when she turned a year old)

also the picture of kaleigh is he In her favorite dress. everyday she wants to wear this dress.... and the shoes she wearing.
shes all "pretty" as she likes to say. she did this outfit all by herself too, the head band and neck less (shoes, on the wrong feet) and you just got to love it!!!!!!

Little girl, Don't grow up so fast
all those carefree times won't last
You see in Beautiful colors
But things change as your grow old
soon the colors start to fade
and you have problems day to day
You think losing a toy will bring you down
Losing a loved one will turn you around
so little girl just have fun
try to stay young, My little one.

i would like everyone to know its taken me THREE days to get this post up. THREE!!!!!!!! there are just not enough hours in the day!
well i think thats all for now, i'll share more of my writings and other favorite quotes soon let me know what you think.

My little family.

I have two wonderful children. Kaleigh and Collin.

Kaleigh  (2 days old)                                                   Collin (2 days old)



This is kaleigh. She is one of the biggest joys in my life she is full of Energy. She loves clothes (skirts and dresses are her favorite), dancing, painting nails, coloring, laughing, playing, talking,  and anything sparkly. She is such a girly girl and i'm not sure why she is. She doesn't get it from me. But I'm willing to embrace it just for her. When she was a baby she was a screamer, always wanted to be held and if something was wrong you knew RIGHT away.  She still has the same spirit  of "I want it now" but i am working with her on being able to wait for things. But she is 2 so you can expect her to be perfect, and i don't. She wants to be very helpful with her little brother, always asking to hold him and feed him. i can tell she going to be a great big sister.

This is Collin. He is one of the other joys I have. He is so mellow. He is barley a month old but i can tell he is going to be a lot like his dad. He is so different than his sister was when she was a baby. but he still has a lot of growing to do....

These are my children. I love them so much, i have no idea what i would do with out them. they are my life... My little girl is currently visiting her grandma pracht. So i have a little time to myself and of course what i have on my mind is my daughter and son (who's sleeping soundly after he just ate)...  :) I get to spend the day hanging out with my husband and i'm very excited to have a little me and him time it feels like forever since we have had a "date" or anything of that Nature. Even though collins still here he still sleeping most of the time... I'm not sure what we will do today or tomorrow but we will have some good old fashion fun!  I've been trying to figure out exactly what i want to do with blog. and i'm sure i'll figure it out after a few post.

I almost forgot about our cat! Her name is Panda. Kaleigh dress her up as a princess! Kaleigh said "look at panda, pretty kitty".  Kaleigh LOVES her, always trying to pick her up and play with her. Every night kaleigh ask to give panda a hug good night. I think its very cute. I'm hoping collin will love her just as much as kaleigh does.