a little life update. Things have been so crazy.
Kaleigh started Preschool! she loves it. but sometimes you can tell she would rather stay home and not go.
it seems like we been having a lot of interesting life experiences. First off my husband taho broke down so we were a one car family for One week. And lets just say I've never been so happy to get that car back up and running. we had to wake the kids up to take kevin to work at 5am then kevin would have to take them to pick me up at 10pm almost every day. it was crazy and I'm just happy that is over.
I work 50 hours this week! YAY over time. I'm pretty excited to see my next check. Works kinda stressful some days because some people get really upset over things they shouldnt be. Of course some people have a right to be angery.
 Every one in the family has a cold  (or allergies not sure which) and the kids went to the doctor and got shots yesterday. He said he thought it was both allergies and a cold.
I'm trying to lose my baby weight I have from collin..  That's going ok. lost a few ponds the past week or so... I'm really hoping to get back to the weight I was before kaleigh. I walk almost every day so that's really helping I'm not on a "diet" but I just watch what I eat and trying to eat things that are better  for me. I'll keep ya guys updated if I reach my goal.
I've been so crazy busy I just don't even know where else to go with this. So its just a little up date.  Hopefully I will post more later this month.

the busy work of life

As most of you know i'm going to be getting pretty busy. Just got full time at my job!! YAY! i'm so excited. A little worried i'll be missing my babies. but I know its for the best and it wont be forever! We have been really tight on money lately because we have to pay back a lot of money that we got from the army, (we knew about the first payment this year and saved like crazy to pay it) and then they turn around and ask us to do it again not even 6 months later, with 3 or 4 month notice.. let me tell ya its not easy coming up with money out of thin air. I'm really hoping I can get as many hours as possible to make sure we don't get behind.
Our little family is doing well. Kaleigh Just turned 3 on Sunday!!



My Little girl  is Growing up.



Make sure you click so you can see the whole picture!!! Kaleigh is Getting So big  I love her, But she can be very stubborn and is a lot more like me then i'd like to admit. Sometimes when she talks I hear myself in what she says. My parents say She nothing like personality wise me, But just like me Energy/temper wise. Of course she is such a girl and Although I am a girl, I've never like the Girly things, so we are not so sure where she got this all from. she has fits when she doesn't get her way, but we are working on getting her to talk about her feelings/wants instead of screaming about them... She lives in a land of Faires and mermaids, where deigo (doras cousin) Rescue animals and she helps him save them. she often "talks" on the phone with him and then when she's "done" kaleigh tells me about all the adventures they have shared. It is quite interesting.. The other night she didnt want to sit down and eat because she was talking to Diego. I have a feeling it wont be the last time she wont want to come to the table because she is talking to a boy.Even if this time his imaginary, that probably only last a few years... she seems to have a very tender soul, Easily hurt and worried about spiders and bugs hurting her. she is such a sweet girl. I love Her so much for the person she is growing into.

Collin just started to cut teeth, None have push all the way threw but they are Just sitting there waiting to pop up. I feel the bumps and i feel so bad for the little guy. But what can you do its a part of life that None of us really remember so i guess thats the best part of it. He Lives on his belly Army crawling around to whatever he sees that sparks his interest. Or he just Follows kaleigh, me, or panda, Our cat around. Every time he sees Panda he Shoots off towards her  to try to get ahold of her before she runs away!! Every so often she holds still for him and  he gets to pet her. I'm almost sure he's going to create trouble for us. Always into something no matter how long you have your back turned. He is such a happy baby giggles real easy and seems to be a very busy body.  also Just the past few week or so started to pull up on things.  climbing my leg, Kaleighs couch, our lower chairs. Its so crazy!! Just today he pulled himself off the floor to his get his toys on his exersaucer.. he got himself to his knees so he could pay with what he wanted!! kinda scared me but he handle him self very well.. Also he is Pig (and i mean that in a nice way), eats a baby jar of fruit or veggies, then something else we are having thats soft.. when it comes to food he will eat anything, yes I know he is just a baby(and of course we dont give him anything his belly cant handle), but he doesn't care what you are eating he thinks he should get some and will Lunge after your plates or hands if he is near by while you are eating. Regardless of how sad or upset I get he always makes me smile.I love my Little boy

And as for my husband, He has been working hard. Switching jobs then going back to his old one. I would ask you pray that his back gets better, it seems to take a bigger toll on him every day. I think I will make a longer post about the more detail stuff with this another time. I have a lot of Feelings about this that would be a great share another day, this post is pretty long already. I hope you like my LONG and big update. TWO in one week!!    :)

Flower my soul

So I've been taking pictures of my flowers this year that we planted... They are so amazing!! To be honest, I never really "loved" flowers before. I like how the look and smell. I've always thought they smell good. This year i didnt get ALL my flowers because, My daughter kaleigh kept picking them Or the out rogues heat  took em out as fast as they bloomed. I'm missing my rose bush, Daffodils, and some other plants i'm not really sure what they are called. Well My husband off hand remark how i should make a phone diary of our flowers because I'm always taking pictures of them...

Some of these pictures where taken with a cell phone so some of the pictures are blury.  a few are Not in my garden. so i'll let ya know.

Flower my soul with overflowing beauty. -Me

My amazing Tulips

Kaleigh with a Tulips

Asiatic Lilies (Pink)

asiatic lilies (only orange one we got!!)

asiatic Lilies (white and VERY light yellow)

not sure what this plant is
but its outside my work, and very pretty.

saw this in the Garden in Omaha

Lilium hot pink

lilium Deep pink almost a purple

these are the orangey or red ones
the pink ones all died before I got a pic.

I have NO idea what this little bush thing
we have is but it blooms a ton of these

Lilium that kevin picked for me

a picture of flowers my husband texted me!!

this one is also from the flower garden in omaha.
star flower or somthing like that
ITS MY favortie. I think.
I love the vains and the shape.
I actually love almost every one of the flowers above.

I hope you like the flowers, a life update soon promise.

a day in the life of ME.

So I've been pretty busy today. The Kids have been with grandma pracht for the day and will be tomorrow as well..
I guess I have some time to myself and I thought why not give you a day in the life of me with out my kids! lol..
Today I woke up later than usual (8:30) which anyone with kids knows thats sleeping in!!! i'm usually up by 7ish...
But anyway. after I got up, I made coffee, and started to clean up the house. Once it was all clean, I steam vac the living room !! it really need it.. Some where in there I had breakfast. and woke up my husband. (who went out and mowed the lawn). Then we wash the car and the Taho. Then we had salad for lunch. Shortly after we went to the store because Kaleighs birthdays on Sunday and we need to get her a present since we hadn't really gotten her anything yet. we need a few things from the store too. Kevin went to work after that . SO once I got home I wrap the presents and then just sat on the couch for a little while. Then I attempted to make banana muffins with crumble top. and that kinda back fired because i used a little too much butter and it melted all over the top of the muffin stead of crumbling. although they still taste WONDERFUL!!! and now I'm sitting at the computer playing YAHTZEE at pogo.com. very good thing to do when your bored and have nothing else to do! also watch a littles news and tv  here and there. Its been great to have a break from my kids but I miss them Dearly!! I always keep myself busy when they are not  around to do it.
Speaking of children, Kaleighs turning 3 Next sunday!!  my baby girls all grown up! and her little brothers not too far behind her! he the size she was at 1! its crazy how it seems like you turn around they are talking and walking and getting in to everything. Kaleigh has some of the best stories and  imagination. She recently told me she doesn't want to be human because she wants to live with Ariel (who is the little mermaid for those of you who don't know) and  be a mermaid. I told her she couldn't because i'd miss her too much and she told me I could go with her. she makes me smile ... Sometimes I wish we could have the innocents of a child again. believe anything can happen, But always thinking it will be the good. My days are nothing like this when my kids are around. I find out what going to happen with my job by the end of august so i'm hoping to get full time!!! and from what my supervisors say thats a very good possibility. any way this is just my little random update, maybe i'll do another tomorrow!
My favorite moment from yesterday!! My Children playing together.

Crazy Life

So things have been pretty crazy.  I just got promoted to customer service in my job, I will be doing more and I have way less time to myself. of course that means my blog will be neglected. I have been so busy working and taking care of the kids. I've been thinking to myself all week. oh I'll blog today. but it just doesn't happen.
My little collin, isn't so little anymore. Army crawling around. getting into EVERYTHING! Its funny say that i almost forgot what a curious little baby was like, but I have... He is such a happy baby and I love being his mom. Kaleigh is growing up. Telling me wild stories, and testing all her limits. I have such great kids.

so I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with this blog because I always feel like I'm running low on time.... but i hope to get some of the stuff I write up here. Just really worried and stressed. I got a lot on my plate and Kevin working lots. I hope to start working more, maybe even get full time. Like I said earlier I will be doing customer service, which means I'll be handling all the people who have problems and or Complaints. It should be interesting and I'm slightly excited to start something new, I could pretty much do my Job with my eyes close. Right now I'm taking classes at night to get all trained, had my first week of training this week and next week I'll be on the phones most of the time. I'll let ya all know how it goes.Sometimes I really wish Money wasnt necessary. And we could just live and trade and bargain for things like way back when. Money always seems to be on the low end. Things are CRAZY. and I really wish more was just for sure and I wouldn't have to worry about what tomorrow brings....
As for now this is all that is new... Maybe I'll run with the idea of doing my peom book via blog soon. but this is it for now... I'll do some more post later!! :)

Feel to make you Real

I've been busy just living life, Enjoying watching my children laugh and grow.
I've been doing some writing, Dealing with stress and other issues that way.
Here is some recent stuff I have written.

Little girl, Don't give it all away,
you will end up regretting it one day.
I know time doesn't seem to fast,
One day you will wish this time would of last
because before you know it today will be the past.
You may be in a place
were you might not recognize your face
Were you are not sure who you are
or who you will become
You might be lost
but don't let your loneliness find you,
and bring you down
You are loved, you are cared for, you are special, and You are beautiful.
Do not let anyone tell you different.



Love in your Loneliness
Don't get lost in the sadness, anger, or fear.

Hold close everyone you hold dear.
its been years since the sadness set in.
since I felt the pain of heart break.
My pen is not my only friend.
actually our relationship has come to an end. (sort of)

I really wish that was better
But the keys under my finders are clicking
and I'm so tired of sitting
Tired of waiting and feeling so lost.
trying to find the right path to go down.
Its kinda Hard to say that I don't were I am going
I just know were I have been

I guess what I'm trying to say with these writings is, that I think too many Girls and boys are growing up way to fast, and will end up regretting their past. But every lesson is learned by each person in their own way. I know no buddy is perfect and I know I am Not.  but that's kind of getting off the subject. The other one is about feeling the realness of life and not hide behind other things. Trying to realize i have a little control over my life but its not in my hands. I have to trust that god will lead me down the right paths and things will be okay and work out. I think I finally have figured out what I will write about.  I want to be a publish writer one day. And I would love to publish a book of my poems, So I think I might start trying out my book  Idea here, Although I am slightly worried it will be copied and I wont get any credit for it, But I figure, its the Internet, Every things dated, PLUS I have all my writings in a note book so it be pretty hard to fake all that if things go bad for me in this publishing business. anyway enjoy!!

just so....

I'm just
so stressed.
so tired.
I come to this page at the end of every day, with so much to say
So much anger and frustration.
SO much wanting to spill my problems out on this page,
like some how that would make them all go away.
Out the door, My bare feet hit the pavement.
Walking seems to be a good way to work out whatever I'm dealing with.
its a good time to think.
good time for peace and quiet

It's just one of those days
when everything is completely wrong
and yet you don’t even know why
and its one of those days when you
just wish that everyone would leave
you alone and go away,
yeah its one of those days
when all you need is to be left alone
yet at the same time you wish
someone out there would care.

Its been a hard time lately there is a lot I really don't feel like sharing and a lot that I just don't know how to say without coming out the wrong way...

I Love my life, Things are not always  easy or perfect. I'm just going to leave it at that. I'll let you know if things change.


Collin and kaleigh are great. I love them no matter what kind of struggles i seem to have. They always make life seem easy and make me miss the carefree time of childhood.
Collins rolling all over the place and he just turned 6 months old!!  HE so different than kaleigh. kaleigh is defiantly at the age were she is testing her limits and seeing what she can and can not get away. But she is so smart and intrested in everything... I love them.