Slacker.

I have come to this blog almost everyday this week and have not posted anything, besides new pages...
I feel like I have nothing important to say. when i know i have SO much to say but just don't know how to go about it. I think I'm just having trouble putting my feelings out there because I just don't want to be judged.
but this blog is about me. so I guess I just don't care, if you don't like it TOO BAD.

I guess the one of the things that's really brothering me is going back to work.
its not leaving the kids with someone else because

As of right now its not worth the cost of day care for us to put both children in day care, so Kevin's working mornings and I will be working nights. If you do not know I'm a morning person. I'd rather be working in the morning because that's when I'm the most alert. at the same time, I love spending mornings with the kids because its nice to start out my days with two of the most lovely things in this world. I also know that working the opposite shift as my husband means I'll be seeing less of him and I'm not so excited about that. If you cant tell I'm very torn about this whole thing.

I've done working from home and loved it. I was not making enough money for me to keep doing it. I was watching other children and was barley breaking even when It came to the food bill. Plus my house was were I worked which don't get me wrong I LOVE MY HOUSE!!! I just dont love it every day, all day, and never ever leaving my house... I felt like my house became my job because if it was messy then that meant I was being messy in my job. I guess I just felt trapped but thats all over and I have a job that I "like"... and trying to get a job that I LOVE .. but Money is money. Its too bad the world is based on money. Kevin always says he wishes it was like it use to be way back when, if you do this for me I'll give you this for you.. I some what agree, This world based way too much on worldly things..

well I guess this post makes me feel like less of a Slacker. I really wanted to put more pictures up, maybe I'll add more later. just couldnt find what I was looking for.....

Some food for thought...

I've been changing my page so much, i keep thinking its so me!
then i see someones else blog and i'm like Oh i really like that.
then think how can i get mine to look like that?!?!
I wish i was as good at editing HTML as i use to be.
these HTML are slightly more complicated than what i've worked with.
I'd spend hours on the computer Customizing my old Blogs/Myspace pages.....
But its like riding a bike i just got to get back into it.....
i've been reading up on some of the different things you can do on your own.
and going to different template pages and playing with the codes
so hopefully i'll just LOVE what  i come up with in the next few days.

anyway enough about the pages of this blog

I was asked to put up my recipe for chicken Alfredo!

Here it is.... its pretty simple

You cook a boneless chicken breast in a lightly butter pan

(i usually also lightly sprinkle pepper and garlic powder in the pan for extra flavor,

but you can use whatever seasoning you want and

i also cut up the chicken breast to bite size so it cooks evenly and fast.)

Bring any type of noodle to a Boil that you want (and of course drain once cooked)

I usually just buy the Alfredo sauce, my favorite is the Bertolli Alfredo sauce,

there are a few different choices for the bertolli alfredo sauce, they all taste really good.

Mix it all together in one pan. i usually add Cheddar cheese and Parmesan cheese and mix it till it melts.

You may also want to cook and put some veges (broccoli, spinach, ect.) Eat and enjoy!

I love BABY FEET! they are so cute and little and collin some of the cutest feet around!

i'm going to put some good quotes on this post because i have nothing better to write in the empty space, most  are by me others i'm not sure were they are from.

I want to write how I feel in the sky,
so then everyone will see, and everyone will know
then maybe everyone will remember. -Me


Music as always been one of loves of my life
it never lets me down
it always there when i need it
it always has the words i need to hear....
I always know what its going to say....
I got ever word memorized in my head.
thats why i always need to hear new music
the old ones become broken records that i dont want to listen to anymore.
But after I dont listen to a song for so long I hear it again then,
Its like a whole new life is brought to the table.-Me

A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for - Anonymous

this thought i've been chasing is dead and buried;
it shouldn't even get flowers on special holidays.
 -me

Life is like a coloring book
destiny has already drawn the picture
but it is you who decides how to fill in the lines

My darling look how much you have grown
so much time has past
I can't believe this year didnt last
if only it would
I love to see how much you have changed and grown.
You are everything i could have wanted in a child and more.
-Me (its about kaleigh. i wrote it when she turned a year old)

also the picture of kaleigh is he In her favorite dress. everyday she wants to wear this dress.... and the shoes she wearing.
shes all "pretty" as she likes to say. she did this outfit all by herself too, the head band and neck less (shoes, on the wrong feet) and you just got to love it!!!!!!

Little girl, Don't grow up so fast
all those carefree times won't last
You see in Beautiful colors
But things change as your grow old
soon the colors start to fade
and you have problems day to day
You think losing a toy will bring you down
Losing a loved one will turn you around
so little girl just have fun
try to stay young, My little one.

i would like everyone to know its taken me THREE days to get this post up. THREE!!!!!!!! there are just not enough hours in the day!
well i think thats all for now, i'll share more of my writings and other favorite quotes soon let me know what you think.

Awkward or awsome..

SO  my sister-in-law did this awkward and awesome thing and i thought it was really cute and couldnt resist!Sydney from The Daybook invited us readers to participate in the Awkward and Awesome Thursdays!  so here are some of my awkward and awesome moments!


Awkward:
* Taking my Kaleigh a 2 and 1/2 year old (who i'm trying to potty train) to a public bathroom because i have to go,  and after i go having her clap and say "good girl mommy, now you can have candy!"
* Kaleigh starting conversations with complete strangers and having to repeat part of what she says because the person wasnt listening to her.
* getting your hair cut, and having the lady cutting your hair tell you that you have food in your hair.
* when your child says something and you have no idea what she talking about! (doesn't happen that often its usually just one or two words i dont understand.)
*People calling me Stephanie when i answer the phone at work. when i clearly say good afternoon Cabelas This is Tiffany, may i place an order for you today.
* having to tell the person your names NOT stephanie more than once. (half the time i dont even correct them anymore....)
* Someone trying to hit on you , then i explain i'm married and not interested and still have to stay on the phone with them for 5 or more mins to finish their order.


Awesome:
*the other day i made dinner all by myself (chicken Alfredo with garlic bread and chocolate chip cookies)
*your husband bring home cookies for you to bake when you wanted them and you didnt even tell him!
*getting the whole house clean
*Building a castle (aka Fort) in kaleighs room and eat pop corn in it.
*random text/ calls from people you didnt expect to hear from anytime soon.
*Kaleigh telling random strangers "i'm cute, look at my dress, its cute!" (at lest she has self esteem)
* Dinner and a movie at home!
* following a soap (days of our lives) thats 40 years old! its on every day! My mother in-law got me into it..
*your husband watching said soap with you because he use to watch it with his mom! :)
*dancing with kaleigh to my phone ringing.

okay thats all for now... i'll post something else later. maybe.

My little family.

I have two wonderful children. Kaleigh and Collin.

Kaleigh  (2 days old)                                                   Collin (2 days old)



This is kaleigh. She is one of the biggest joys in my life she is full of Energy. She loves clothes (skirts and dresses are her favorite), dancing, painting nails, coloring, laughing, playing, talking,  and anything sparkly. She is such a girly girl and i'm not sure why she is. She doesn't get it from me. But I'm willing to embrace it just for her. When she was a baby she was a screamer, always wanted to be held and if something was wrong you knew RIGHT away.  She still has the same spirit  of "I want it now" but i am working with her on being able to wait for things. But she is 2 so you can expect her to be perfect, and i don't. She wants to be very helpful with her little brother, always asking to hold him and feed him. i can tell she going to be a great big sister.

This is Collin. He is one of the other joys I have. He is so mellow. He is barley a month old but i can tell he is going to be a lot like his dad. He is so different than his sister was when she was a baby. but he still has a lot of growing to do....

These are my children. I love them so much, i have no idea what i would do with out them. they are my life... My little girl is currently visiting her grandma pracht. So i have a little time to myself and of course what i have on my mind is my daughter and son (who's sleeping soundly after he just ate)...  :) I get to spend the day hanging out with my husband and i'm very excited to have a little me and him time it feels like forever since we have had a "date" or anything of that Nature. Even though collins still here he still sleeping most of the time... I'm not sure what we will do today or tomorrow but we will have some good old fashion fun!  I've been trying to figure out exactly what i want to do with blog. and i'm sure i'll figure it out after a few post.

I almost forgot about our cat! Her name is Panda. Kaleigh dress her up as a princess! Kaleigh said "look at panda, pretty kitty".  Kaleigh LOVES her, always trying to pick her up and play with her. Every night kaleigh ask to give panda a hug good night. I think its very cute. I'm hoping collin will love her just as much as kaleigh does.

My First Post

So i have come to the conclusion that i need to start writing again. Not just my poems but about my life. this is slightly inspired by the fact my i have been reading my sister-in-laws blog and realize how much I miss writing and telling people about randomness and talking about all the things i love. so this is my first post. hopefully i can keep it up. I use to blog a lot, but then i had a lot more time on my hands.... I am hoping I will, i need a place to share my thoughts and writing to keep it up so i don't get rusty. I do want to be published someday.

a little about me....
I am married to my best friend in the world, Kevin.
we have two children, Kaleigh, who is 2 and Collin, who will be 4 weeks old tomorrow.
and I'm probably going to spend the next hour or three trying to get everything on my blog page perfect before i tell anyone about it. :)